Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Arbeit durch Schmerz

Es ist immer eine neue haltung... diese mal fur mich besser...


I pack my case.
I check my face.
I look a little bit older.
I look a little bit colder.
With one deep breath, and one big step,
I move a little bit closer.
I move a little bit closer.
For reasons unknown.

I caught my stride.
I flew and flied.
I know if destiny’s kind, I’ve got the rest of my mind.
But my heart, it dont beat, it dont beat the way it used to.
And my eyes, they dont see you no more.
And my lips, they dont kiss, they dont kiss the way they used to,
and my eyes don’t recognize you no more.
for reasons unknown...

There was an open chair.
We sat down in the open chair.
I said if destiny’s kind, i’ve got the rest of my mind.
But my heart, it dont beat, it dont beat the way it used to.
And my eyes, they dont see you no more.
And my lips, they dont kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to,
and my eyes don’t recognize you at all...

Music by: The Killers [For Reasons Unknown]

Tuesday, December 08, 2009

Hoffnung

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?
How I wish, how I wish you were here.
We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,
Running over the same old ground.
What have you found? The same old fears.
Wish you were here.
Music by: Isn't obvious?

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

Die nachricht

At the end I know perfectly the reason for my insomnia. I never imagined to get aware of your new condition in this way. I searched for it and now I see why I was not able to see; just because I was willing not to see.
I'm feeling strangely alienated; maybe because I pictured a total different moment to cheer this; even I'm still on the position that it's the better the destiny may have prepared for both... just not for me to realize that I breathed extra based on my own ignorance; but that's something I cannot change by now.
I feel bad for myself, since I tried to make things different this time; maybe at the end it doesn't depended on me, but rather all time on you. I'm still this way happy for you, because I see the reason of your smile clearer than ever. I will hope the best from now on from a totally different position, but believe me; it comes from the bottom of my heart.
I do feel tired...
Music by: Katie Melua [ The Closest Thing to Crazy]