## Tuesday, December 21, 2010

### Grenze

I'm reaching the edge of my sanity

Music by: Pink Floyd [ The Great Gig in the Sky]

## Monday, December 13, 2010

### Gerüst

"... soon comes rain
frost or flames
skeleton me

Fall asleep
spin the sky
skeleton me
Love, don't cry..."

Music by: The YYY's [Skeletons]

## Thursday, December 09, 2010

### Ereignishorizont

An event horizon is a boundary in spacetime beyond which events cannot affect an outside observer. The most common case of an event horizon is that surrounding a black hole. Light emitted from beyond the horizon can never reach the observer. Likewise, any object approaching the horizon from the observer's side appears to slow down and never quite pass through the horizon, with its image becoming more and more redshifted as time elapses. The traveling object, however, experiences no strange effects and does, in fact, pass through the horizon in a finite amount of proper time.

The most commonly known example of an event horizon derives from general relativity's description of a black hole, a celestial object so dense that no nearby matter or radiation can escape its gravitational field. Often, this is described as the boundary within which the black hole's escape velocity is greater than the speed of light. However, a more accurate description is that within this horizon, all lightlike paths (paths that light could take) and hence all paths in the forward light cones of particles within the horizon, are warped so as to fall farther into the hole. Once a particle is inside the horizon, moving into the hole is as inevitable as moving forward in time, and can actually be thought of as equivalent to doing so, depending on the spacetime coordinate system used.

Here I must cite a proper font to describe a suitable definition:

"The criterion for determining whether an event horizon for the universe exists is as follows. Define a comoving distance dE by

$d_E=\int_{t_0}^\infty \frac{c}{a(t)}dt\ .$

In this equation, a is the scale factor, c is the speed of light, and t0 is the age of the universe. If $d_E \rightarrow \infty$ (i.e. points arbitrarily as far away as can be observed), then no event horizon exists. If $d_E \neq \infty$, a horizon is present... "

The description of event horizons given by general relativity is thought to be incomplete. When the conditions under which event horizons occur are modelled using a more comprehensive picture of the way the universe works, that includes both relativity and quantum mechanics, event horizons are expected to have properties that are different from those predicted using general relativity alone.

At present, it is expected that the primary impact of quantum effects is for event horizons to possess a temperature and so emit radiation. For black holes, this manifests as Hawking radiation, and the larger question of how the black hole possesses a temperature is part of the topic of black hole thermodynamics. For accelerating particles, this manifests as the Unruh effect, which causes space around the particle to appear to be filled with matter and radiation.

Duh....

## Friday, November 26, 2010

### Day & Age

Time changes us, changes our environment and our beloved ones for equal independently on how we conceive each story as foretold.

I wonder on the many ways I've conceived this aging process through many stages of my own life. There was a time in which this was not only irrelevant nor considerable, and therefore not a priority. Later I conceived aging as a maturity process and I wanted to get there as fast as possible just because of being tired of the past stage (therefore confirming the theory of boredom), Each step brought more discoveries, experiences and responsabilities that switched my perspective from time to time. After several years, now I worry for some things I never realized before; and I'm pretty sure this may continue as I go forward...

Things have changed, places are basically the same (normally, even I grew on a couple of points in the world I wanted to visit) and expectatives are to continue this way for some more time. I carry new responsabilities and so I'd like to learn from them.

Maybe with the come of the years this may start to morph again into something I worry on a daily basis, this could be one of the first chapters of this conception and so I would like to remember it as it is.

Music by: Porter [Este Cosmos]

## Tuesday, November 02, 2010

### Stoicism

Main problem for a man that follows his own instinct; is to pursue the goals of another man.

Music by: Duck Sauce [Barbra Streisand]

## Monday, November 01, 2010

### Unbekannt

Astonishingly delused by a season stranged enough as to pass by without major notice, I took a couple of later valuable minutes to meditate of what is the meaning of our feelings towards the things we don't know.

Rare, yet not unfeasible are some things I have recently heard; therefore making me think on the causability of the universe. A season for changes and contrasts, quite interesting for a quiet living.

I must quote a couple of key aspects of this reflection in the pure form they came to my encounter:

"Strange is our situation here upon earth. Each of us comes for a short visit, not knowing why, yet sometimes seeming to a divine purpose. From the standpoint of daily life, however, there is one thing we do know: That we are here for the sake of others...for the countless unknown souls with whose fate we are connected by a bond of sympathy. Many times a day, I realize how much my outer and inner life is built upon the labors of people, both living and dead, and how earnestly I must exert myself in order to give in return as much as I have received."

...

"Get it into your head once and for all, my simple and very fainthearted fellow, that what fools call humanness is nothing but a weakness born of fear and egoism; that this chimerical virtue, enslaving only weak men, is unknown to those whose character is formed by stoicism, courage, and philosophy"

...

"Faith and doubt both are needed - not as antagonists, but working side by side to take us around the unknown curve"

... after all, it's quite funny to continue being surprised....

Music by: Queens of the Stone Age [Long Slow Goodbye]

## Wednesday, October 13, 2010

### Träume

Wie man in den Wald hineinruft, so schallt es heraus...

Whom we leave behind are ghosts haunting us for a certain reason. Those chapters coming as flashes from past seasons threaten the continuity of what we live alive; and so long they are here once again because of something else. As far as I can figure out, every piece of this puzzle is here to enable the joining of another coming one, and therefore adding something to the big picture. This is the reason for their coming, this is why they were there.

The contribution of each player to a bigger result must be understood as the final intention of their role. Precisely opposed to an inherent Perspectivism of this point of view; this I expect to ensure and afterwards learn to enjoy.

Even in dreams, I still found some remaining reasons to continue...

Music by: Kasabian [Club Foot]

## Tuesday, September 14, 2010

### Vierzehn minuten

Hearing the sound of the wind is something underestimated across ages of our lives. Normally, we are to used to hurry and speed up as long as something must be done and therefore we have a reason to look straigth to the moment and go on. Simple as sight but complicated as seeing.

Many things could cheer up the moments just because of the inertia of whatever comes after; instead of representing by themselves hope and joy caused by pure existence. Sometimes it is not at all about pushing and harvesting; not about having a big smile and pretending nothing happens in a perfect world. It is this way just because it is so; and the only way to going back to an idle state is more of this...

I write this because I've been trying to do what's right; and at the end I know I could stay there all night, just watching clouds fall from the sky.

yes, this river is wild...

Music by: Björk [The Comet song]

## Wednesday, September 01, 2010

### Fluss

"...because this River is wild!"

Music by: Queen [ Winners take all]

## Thursday, August 12, 2010

### Lücke

"... Cause it's time to bring the fire down
Bridle all this indiscretion
Long enough to edify
And permanently fill this hollow..."

Music by: A Perfect Circle [The Hollow]

## Friday, July 30, 2010

### Vergangenheit V2.0

"When youre a kid, all you ever want is for the stories your mom reads you to be true. You think you can crawl inside the world thats in every book and live in the pictures on every page, but deep down you know that this isnt something that could ever happen. And its knowing that the magic isnt quite there, that its just over the next hill or maybe in the next story, that makes you feel safe in your bed at night. You really wouldnt want it to be any other way."

Music by: A Perfect Circle [Breña]

## Friday, July 09, 2010

### Zukunftsglaube

..." Eu não tenho vistas largas,
nem grande sabedoria,
mas dão-me as horas amargas
lições de filosofia" ...

Music by: Imelda May [Bring back my Cadillac]

## Monday, July 05, 2010

### Tagesanbruch

Times come and go, leaving behind what can be considered as experiences and memories that build our lives. Some of them are sticked to the back of our minds tying their message to the present once and again as a broken recorder.

Music is at the end the rythm of the things to come; and hearing our song is everytime a reminder that there's more; there's a new step each time; and that there's hope.

This music... is you ... ¬¬
Music by: Imelda May [ Feel Me]

## Monday, June 21, 2010

### Geburtstagwörter

¬¬

kleine Einzelheit...

... aber schon wieder Grunde genug

Music by: HIM [Sweet 666]

## Wednesday, June 16, 2010

### TAU

=)

Music by: The Rolling Stones [Streets of Love]

## Tuesday, June 08, 2010

### Sonnenschein

jedes mal ein bisschen näher...

Music by: Thin Lizzy [Whiskey in a Jar]

## Thursday, June 03, 2010

### eine neu Anfang

Die gleiche frage; eine neue antwort...

It is a carbon copy of the same moment.
It is not the fact that is an akward moment; but instead that it seems to be uncomfortable even to speak at it. What must be done is to skip this next time.

Even I'm not completely aware of it, I know that something is in progress. Something that could really turn my edge around once again. I'm still a little bit shy regarding how to go into this; but it feels good...

"...Birds flying high, you know how I feel..."

Music by: Muse [Feeling good]

## Saturday, May 22, 2010

### Die Teufel

Immer zusammen
durch den Fussbalfeld
und Aus.

Musik von: AC/DC [Thunderstruck]

## Tuesday, May 18, 2010

### Sprachlos

When I'm at the pearly gates
This will be on my videotape...

Mephistopheles is just beneath
and he's reaching up to grab me...

This one is for the good days
and I have it all here in Red, Blue, Green
in Red, Blue, Green...

## Sunday, May 09, 2010

### Bestimmung

It comes everytime I preview what I must pursue ahead. Knowing exactly what I'm fighting against leads to a unavoidable fate of turning against what in the past has dropped me back uncountable times. I see, and I recognize that look in the eyes of my own reflection that I'm only one wish behind... but it is everytime like this.

Once I believed that those trips would lead me to find the parts of me that I cannot find in (and inside) my own environment. This was the same tale, only dressed in a namely fashion I could urge to understand before taking any decision. The question once again is: What am I ready to pay in order to gain something? Love, time, money, mind, usw; everytime is something like a mix aligned to a promise.

Growing greater is something I must be sure of, but I guess if it is only through more cut-outs that I can ensure this; then I must be aware of the things I leave behind before it's too late.
Maybe it is better that this time I'm a little bit short of time for over thinking.

Music by: Little Boots [Mathematics]

## Sunday, April 25, 2010

### Augenblick von licht

noch einmal ich bin überzeugt uber etwas besser...

And this happen once again to slap me on the backyard of my own feelings about that everytime this faith realizes I'm still here; I must be thankful about this tidal wave of things that tease on options for the future.

I got lost (only on the inside) by the color of those eyes only to realize that it's happening again; taking me out of the same comfort zone in which I hold the control all the time. A good explanation can be found through the self recognaissance of what originates this emptiness on the only purpose of pushing towards something else. Then this paradigm is focused on what does this something else means for each one of us, making this a continuous process of learning. not so far from the original concept?
I was overwhelmed by the environment, because it was REALLY nice. I can't step really over those edges I won't ensure even exist for me; but it was quite comfortable... even quite numbing.
By the way, thank you!
Music by: The Expendables [Sacrifice]

## Wednesday, April 21, 2010

### Inspiration

Music by: Muse [Unintended]

## Wednesday, March 31, 2010

### Farewell Ride

It is everytime we are blinded by the power of an strong event; that we put in the balance those things that come unawared most of the time. That is why we are surprised by the astonishing panorama of the unavoidable at the point we are not able to fix the situation without another choice than going through.

People form our life as bricks that fit together in an uniquely shaped pattern, and the slaps from life generate some of them as eventuals, being lost as pieces never able to be recovered. Thinkers on this have agreed that no matter how you focus in this loss, it will always be remembered as a loss. What make a difference between what is worth to go through and what doesn't; is precisely that response generated after the loss.

There are no manuals, books or instructives on what to do next. It is inside your heart. It has always been there because that is the last place we are used to look in; and therefore, the path of understandment in ensured with the promise of a reward at the end. I don't hesitate to consider that is easy to see the answer in the pain of others; but I guess this is a way to throw a challenge that can be reached for good.

Be sure that this is also painful for the ones that love you. and I don't dare to compare in any way. We are confident in looking to an stronger version of yourself after this. In the meanwhile, we are with you brother...

Music by: Noel Gallagher [Fade away]

## Wednesday, March 17, 2010

### Wide awake

I'm not still overwhelmed by those things that scare away my dreams at night; but as I see, they are pushing hard to reach my rock bottom. I just lost another battle, and I'm struggling back to remember that it is that way everytime.
Being a little bit hurt again brings back the feeling that lead me to redraw my personal premises. I pass over this again and that reminds me why is always my task to come over this alone. Never different and never the same.
Music by: Beck [Farewell ride]

## Monday, March 08, 2010

### Anfangen

As every new day, I rediscover that music remind us that there is something else in the universe than us...

Music by: Velvet Revolver [You got no right]

## Sunday, March 07, 2010

### Sonntag

Setting assets in the facts that nothing is purely caused by uncertainty and coincidence as the only mean to iniciate an existence; sometimes is hard to understand the root cause of the actions coming along after sometime of absence. It is everytime I am in the middle of this kind of forecasted arguing; that I remember what is the common difference between those who plan and execute and those who live under the reactive behaviour as an everyday routine.

It is not that I do not appreciate the comforts of everyday's stability, the security of the familiar and the tranquility of repetition. But instead I rather to face an everyday challenge as the condiment of the blind impulse that pushes me forward. Questions may come and go, but I'm kind of getting used to it.

As an unavoidable reference in almost everything I write, there are some words that serve as a foundation for my point of view, and I like to remember them...

... I dare do all that may become a man, who dares do more is none.

... conceal me that I am, and be my aid for such disguise as happily shall become the form of my intent...

... It is that I, like God, do not play with dice and do not believe in coincidence....
Music by: Bach [Toccata e fuga in Do minore]

## Wednesday, February 24, 2010

### Derridá

"... the entire history of the concept of structure, before the rupture of which we are speaking, must be thought of as a series of substitutions of centre for centre, as a linked chain of determinations of the centre. Successively, and in a regulated fashion, the centre receives different forms or names. The history of metaphysics, like the history of the West, is the history of these metaphors and metonymies. Its matrix is the determination of Being as presence in all senses of this word. It could be shown that all the names related to fundamentals, to principles, or to the centre have always designated an invariable presence – eidos, archē, telos, energeia, ousia (essence, existence, substance, subject), alētheia, transcendentality, consciousness, God, man, and so forth..."

– "Structure, Sign and Play" in Writing and Difference, p. 353

## Monday, February 22, 2010

### sich beruhigen

Being ease not only in my head, but also with those things that are out of it; I'm starting to learn once again what peace is. Supported maybe by the long time present strategy ensuring me to remain on my comfort zone at least in some critical points, life is taking a rythm worth to see around what should be the direction to take. I have not only the privilege of enjoying silence as just a few do; but also I have on my side those who make the time to shape into laughs.

As a matter of facts, things happen for a reason that does not always is clear enough as to be understood, but only tests us to look if we are strong enough not only to go through it, but to enjoy it in the middle. By now I've been blessed with things I specially enjoy and that I hope would serve as a plattform for something else.

Future may bring additional challenges and other things out of the scope, waiting to make this time more fun and to give more topics to write about; but that's just a guessing joined with a lot of plans.

Music by: Wolfmother [California Queen]

## Friday, February 19, 2010

### Hiersein

So here I go, Im still scratching around the same old hole
My body feels young but my mind is very old
So what do you say?
You can give me the dreams that are mine anyway
Youre half the world away
Half the world away
Half the world away

Ive been lost, Ive been found but I don't feel down.

And when I leave this planet
You know I'd stay but I just can't stand it and
I can feel the warning signs running around my mind
And if I could leave this spirit
I'd find me a hole and I'll live in it cos
I can feel the warning signs running around my mind

So here I go still scratching around in the same old hole
My body feels young but my mind if very old
So what do you say?
You can give me the dreams that are mine anyway
Youre half the world away
Half the world away
Half the world away
Ive been lost, Ive been found but
I don't feel down
No I don't feel down
No I don't feel down

Music by: Bacilos [Lo mismo que yo]

## Wednesday, February 17, 2010

### Wolfmutter

They came from ten thousand feet, on a possibility street
It was the law of the land, turned castles into the sand
When its only kingdoms a turning, when Ive got to find out some
Learning even the people so small, wanna see the tyrant a fall, oh yeah

You could be, what you see, anytime, this time
Could it be, what you see, you could be, in time
Your love, my love, our love, in time
Your love, my love, our love, in time

It was the law of the land, turned castles into the sand
Somehow the machine prevailed, another tyrants tale
Its only kingdoms a turning, watching the factories burning
Even the mountain so tall, will see the tyrant fall, oh yeah

Anytime, you could see, what you be, in time
Could it be, everything, that you see, is fine
Your love, my love, our love, in time
Your love, my love, our love, yeah in time

Take, the time, to see, the other things in life
Are all around, you never get the time
To see, all this, about me anyway
Your love, my love, will stand in time always.

Music by: Wolfmother [10,000 feet]

## Sunday, February 14, 2010

### Naturlich

Music is the perfect companion for the unwritten life sparing in front of us. A personal soundtrack is always playing, whenever we are open to hear properly...

Music by: Collective soul ( Straight Lines)
Sent from my Nokia E63

## Tuesday, February 02, 2010

### Der Teufel ist Zurück

I insist
that you are in love my lover
you passed out
and I didnt even noticed
I think in position

So,so,so,so
So,so,so,so...here in my mind

Lovely, lovely time is nothing but (lovely)
Lovely, lovely time is nothing while (lovely)
Lovely, lovely time is nothing but (lovely)

You're a host of a ghost...

Music by: Porter [Host of a Ghost]

## Friday, January 29, 2010

### Immer mehr für machen

We commonly come and go

thinking in what can we do for ourselves.

why not to question...

What Can I do myself?

for me including others.

and those others

are not always socially defined

as the object of help

even some people

keep fighting for it,

when the grattitude is rare

and barely spoken

at least in words we can write.

The bigger the effort
the quieter you reach yourself
and the closer you are for a change

Thank YOU

## Thursday, January 28, 2010

### Lied

Love my name
Love left dry
Frost or flame
Skeleton me
Fall asleep
Spin the sky
Skeleton me
Love, don’t cry
Love, don’t cry
Love, don’t cry
Skeleton me
Skeleton me

Soon comes rain
Frost or flame
Skeleton me
Fall asleep
Spin the sky
Skeleton me
Love, don’t cry
Love, don’t cry
Love, don’t cry
Skeleton me
Skeleton me

Music by: The Yeah Yeah Yeah's [Zero]

## Wednesday, January 27, 2010

### Fieber fur sagen

Today it's Rock season opening; after a long long time where hard experiences and distance from music inspiration where the constant.
Being considered in the long-time questioned genre classification as Indie rock-Garage punk, Mrs Karen O.; Brian Chase and Nick Zinner promess to blow our minds with their lyrics and highly inspirated rock.
For me this is a good chance to expect an asynchronous reflection based on lyrics and environment, based on what has been for me to reach this life. I will be together with my friends (not all, but a pair of good ones) and that's enough reason to say....
HELL YEAH !!!!!!

Music by: Fobia [Una vida Sencilla]

## Monday, January 25, 2010

### noch einmal...

"... y siempre voy a estar aqui; mas no puedo quedarme a verlo
te va a tocar desmantelar esta bomba de tiempo..."

Music by: Los Concorde [Bomba de Tiempo]

## Monday, January 18, 2010

### Neues Zeit

Suddenly the plans come out of nothing just as if I had ignored them for a long time. It was not really that there were no plans, but instead that those plans were not a priority and I was instead looking toward some other stuff as worrying reasons. I have a tendency to think that there is no other way to find those things that bring happiness; but that is an idea I like to question by now, considering the fragility of my own concept of justice.
It is by now comfortable to realize that there are fewer problems that took away my dreams at night ; since it will be a problem soon that the same lack of issues could lead me to look for them. I know myself and that is why I'm pretty sure of this. I still believe that Truth is something worth to fight for...
"I want it all, and I want it now"

Music by: Queen [I Want it all]

## Tuesday, January 12, 2010

### L'Via L'Viaquez

Recently I have been overwhelmed by the temperature, the wheater, the color of underwear and inpersonal gaming through the Gold suscription; therefore I understand why the only thing that come to my mind at this point is...

My Gym Partner's a Monkey

(Monkey Monkey Monkey)

My Gym Partner's a Monkey

(Monkey Monkey Monkey)

My Gym Partner's a Monkey

(MONKEY, MONKEY, MONKEY)

My Gym Partner's a Monkey!
Music by: Santana [Black Magic Woman]

## Wednesday, January 06, 2010

### Déjà Vécu

Everyone of us have had an experience of the sensation we occasionally realize that what we are saying or living had been said or lived before; in a way we are able to predict for a couple of seconds what is coming next. I wonder what might happen whenever we try to explain the root of this into the limits of what we understand as predictability of a soft phenomena. This is strangely related to irrelevant situations like an informal conversation of a simple trip back home that are hardly consequent in a higher context. Even there are several hypotheses regarding the root cause of this; it's still kind of hard to explain something that cannot be registered, reproduced neither accurately detected in any way. The question is still, what's the point of living this?

A more plausible approach to an explanation comes from the fact that being able to predict a pointless situation is not really a precognition of the previously lived, but instead a glitch in the recording memory representing a feeling of something being reminded for a second time. This might be supported by the fact that it specially hard to explain further details like when, where or how this came to happen. The curious aspect of this same theory is that secondary events may relate to each other composing a same plotline; which then represent a lower possibility of fitting along together coherently; therefore representing a more comprehensive effort of our brain to reliably gather the situation.

I used to wonder why are we obsessed with the understandment of those things that happen to distract us from looking for an answer itself; and this would be something I wish to learn as part of my life.

...from the forest itself comes the axle for the axe...

Music by: Jonatan Rys Meyers [This time]

## Monday, January 04, 2010

### Menschlich Akkordfolge

Is it everytime we note the absence of it; that we realize that all the time we heard the rythm of our lifes guiding our tale in a sometimes hard to follow harmony. I recently heard that music is the reminder that God had something else to do than us and therefore that is why music is still keeping so many secrets for the human race. Most of us are capable of hearing it, but the true nature of this sinergy is what do we need to do to listen to what our song is trying to tell us.

I came aware too that everytime we would try to describe / permute / follow / write / explain this symphony to anoter being; the only result is an skip in the level of understandment that you can ensure for yourself; being thus kind of hard to get back to a concept appliable to your current condition. I think our own fears regarding not knowing how to follow this music is what make us look for advise on what to do next, and this only distract us from being able to hear whatever is contained in those notes. At the end we are the same alone and not alone, depending on why we use this decision for. As a result of this condition, I infer that we are determined to live our life under the long play of a soundtrack giving a landscape to what we go through, dressing with emotions this picture mute no more. Then, we learn why music bring us emotions, personal and individual meanings for a same note. There is no absolute pain neither absolute joy that can be initiated through music, since the mere concept of absolutism may be related too a certain "melody" and moment.

At the end everything is resumed to how we hear this music being played only for us, intended to bring us a message that is only feasible in the same moment and rythm we are living. Wheter we can use this music on our benefit or not, it would only make sense in the same moment and personal belongings written on a partiture greater than we could picture.
next...
Music by: Lilly Allen [22 (Acoustic)]