La insoportable levedad de la Mandrágora Filipina

Schwer / Schwache

2012-02-15T19:55:00.001-08:00

It is hard to learn that sometimes, to grow means to cut somebody's else dream...

Gedacht

2012-01-03T07:03:00.001-08:00

I must thank at the end having the chance of
Joining my family and my beloved ones to share the season. I recognize that it has been a nice time with joy and peace, but there is always something at the middle of my own role that tires me. It is not only about time and money, but of the guidance I'm charged with and that leaves a sense of uncomfortability on me.

Anyway I will bless this time and hope to wait for the next time we gather all together again. In the meantime, I need to rest...

... Do I?

Tschuss

2011-12-28T18:00:00.000-08:00

"Farewell my dear iron horse; shall your path continue on a highway to new glories"

Music by: Bob Dylan [All the tired horses]

Schwierigkeiten

2011-12-07T20:39:00.001-08:00

I guess this is one of those spots in life that I get a numb awareness of how things have changed regarding how I conceived it many years ago.

Really, I knew it. I only can expect this to go on and on.

Really?

Dream on

2011-10-10T20:29:00.001-07:00

Is life supposed to keep you fed up for long periods like this?

I know, but I like to pretend that it is more interesting than that...

Zufriedenheit

2011-09-25T21:25:00.001-07:00

LOL... Thats what Im missing lately

Ausdehnung

2011-09-01T20:39:00.001-07:00

<p>I see clearly what does it mean to "stretch" after something go wrong with your expectatives. What I overlooked for a long time is that this also avoids the smile to come out from your soul, and that it may take away everything good your soul is still enjoying.

I know now that only the power of smiling takes back the good on your day... :-)

Nochmal...

2011-07-14T18:58:00.001-07:00

A chain is just as strong as it's weakest link. That has been once again a lesson that seem quite unclear for some parts of this system. The only real problem is that the tension splits into the rest of this chain expanding the stress and the overeffort in addition to the normal load.

I want to help, but something must be understood; a simple solution is as far from the beginning as it is now.

Time for a turnover. A total one...

Beide

2011-06-27T21:02:00.001-07:00

Then there was a couple of seconds we both spend staring at each other. This wasn't special at all, because we both know how all would end. I guessed on why to struggle for an unavoidable fate in such a filthy manner instead of the possibility of a mutually convenient agreement. I will do my best to kill you. It's up to you then.

Mercy is a trademark of chevalry, not only from a gentleman, but from a fair player. So be not a mouse ...

Geburtstag v 28.0

2011-06-21T08:02:00.000-07:00

Is this the time when an irreluctant reflection should pass by only to remember that dates remind us things that matter. I consider a valuable time has been invested in order to complete more stages in a life plan intended to be present a lot more of dates.

I have the privilege of continuing with the gathering of those things that allow me to sleep at night; and spend a couple of smiles during the day. Even though, challenges are still there; and sometimes I lost the focus staring at them as if they were walls that avoid the reach of my own goals. Once and again I realize that those walls are part of the road. They always were... and I'm still here.

I must and I want to thank somebody. Every person that made me what I'm today is part of this; independently of a black/white tag on our life status. I present my respect to all of you in the form of an impersonal thought. And it is not because I lack of warmness, but because I believe all of you understand what I put in these words.

Thank you for believing in me.

Music by: Oasis [Champagne Supernova]

Ruhe

2011-05-19T10:12:00.000-07:00

Life is rich, but it's way too short
You make a lot of money, but you just want more
I don't need the pain right here in my heart
But I hate every minute when we're so far apart...

Music by: The Rolling Stones [Don't Tear Me Up]

Krankensein

2011-05-01T19:23:00.001-07:00

Vier Tage jetzt...zu viel Dinge zu machen und eine Sache noch einmal zu finden.

Es fangt morgens an.

seit.../ Zeit....

2011-04-20T09:46:00.000-07:00

Don't you hear, Don't you see them falling,
Don't you hear, Don't you see them falling.

Do you remember mama, when I knocked upon your door?
I said you had the nerve to tell me you didn't want me no more, yeah
I open my front door, hear my back door slam,
You must have one of them new fangled back door man.

I've been working from seven, seven, seven, to eleven every night, It kinda makes my life a drag...
Baby, Since I've Been Loving You, I'm about to lose, I'm about lose to my worried mind...

Music by (of course): Led Zepellin [Since I've Loving You]

Horen sie sich

2011-04-11T20:27:00.000-07:00

True nature of sound is often related to whatever we assume is able to produce it. Therefore we associate the source of the sound to the things we know and remember; and commonly we do not infer from this source to be different that the one we remember. Just as we phase out the certainty of the widely spread knowledge in the form of questions; an increasing willingness for redirecting predefined postures against the most pure instinct of basic concepts can be refreshing.

with this as a basis; comes the main line of this post. Whenever we produce significant signals of our stay and permanence over this world; in the form of matter and disturbance in several ways; sound is clearly recognizable as a milestone of our existence and therefore a distinctive mark of human life.

How does the sound remain then as a sign of our existence?

Sound is created by a disturbance travelling through and ellastic media; therefore representing a discrete event in a timeline. Based once again in the fact that we recognize sounds with the stored information we can associate regarding what we are focusing in; sound must be rebuilt by our brain based on a continuous spectrum of an scale we can recognize... but sound is ephimerous and therefore not repeatable either by an exact phenomena; nor the rephasing of the same act originally producing it. How can we ensure then sound is exactly what we listened before?

Think of this the next time you wake up in the morning hearing the same alarm clock you have for years now; or the next time you hear the voice of those whom you love... are they really there?

Music by: Does it really matter?

Atomik Träume

2011-03-29T20:33:00.001-07:00

Weniger sind die Opportunität, aber gibt es immer Hoffnung zu einen Lösung zu finden. jetzt Meine Gebete wird dort bleiben...

Schmetterling Gründe

2011-03-12T19:43:00.001-08:00

Ironically, the world today is at sight of the live theory of what mean to be a system. In the most normal case, 12 hours ago there was almost nobody with an idea of how this disaster would affect even the most humble fisherman in the coasts of Panama.

I state once again the situation on how our world remind us that we are merely guests in this space, and the reminders are quite terrible.

Written during my daily morning meeting. ... How interesting.

Noch einmal überdenken

2011-03-05T11:11:00.001-08:00

It seems that destiny has curious ways for letting us know the time to shake our foundations and put the things on a perspective. Almost 18 months have passed wince the las offering; and now there are a couple of additionals elements that feed a larger strom of ideas forward on my own faith for life. This may be q good chance to speed up things in whatever this idea merely means.

Unlike the previous time, I don't want to spend my weekend in infinite possibilities analysis of the scenarios, rather than enjoying a good time with those that make my life special.

...thank you for being there

Das licht

2011-02-20T18:21:00.001-08:00

Once again I see that this choice was the right one, and the base of many more I 'm willing to take later...

Media by : Fox channel [ The Simpsons]

Einfach...

2011-02-17T16:59:00.001-08:00

Leben ist groß genug.
Red keinen unsinn für jemand...

Mobile

2011-02-04T17:10:00.001-08:00

In ten years the fact of writing this post from a mobile device may seem to me an unimportant issue gainst the possibilities of a constantly changing state of the art technology. As far as for today, Im quite surprised about the freedom of this commodity.

Ad libitum ...(no music this time)

Grenze

2010-12-21T08:53:00.000-08:00

I'm reaching the edge of my sanity

Music by: Pink Floyd [ The Great Gig in the Sky]

Gerüst

2010-12-13T10:04:00.000-08:00

"... soon comes rain
dry your eyes
frost or flames
skeleton me

Fall asleep
spin the sky
skeleton me
Love, don't cry..."

Music by: The YYY's [Skeletons]

Ereignishorizont

2010-12-09T09:16:00.000-08:00

An event horizon is a boundary in spacetime beyond which events cannot affect an outside observer. The most common case of an event horizon is that surrounding a black hole. Light emitted from beyond the horizon can never reach the observer. Likewise, any object approaching the horizon from the observer's side appears to slow down and never quite pass through the horizon, with its image becoming more and more redshifted as time elapses. The traveling object, however, experiences no strange effects and does, in fact, pass through the horizon in a finite amount of proper time.

The most commonly known example of an event horizon derives from general relativity's description of a black hole, a celestial object so dense that no nearby matter or radiation can escape its gravitational field. Often, this is described as the boundary within which the black hole's escape velocity is greater than the speed of light. However, a more accurate description is that within this horizon, all lightlike paths (paths that light could take) and hence all paths in the forward light cones of particles within the horizon, are warped so as to fall farther into the hole. Once a particle is inside the horizon, moving into the hole is as inevitable as moving forward in time, and can actually be thought of as equivalent to doing so, depending on the spacetime coordinate system used.

Here I must cite a proper font to describe a suitable definition:

"The criterion for determining whether an event horizon for the universe exists is as follows. Define a comoving distance $d E$ by

In this equation, a is the scale factor, c is the speed of light, and t₀ is the age of the universe. If (i.e. points arbitrarily as far away as can be observed), then no event horizon exists. If , a horizon is present... "

The description of event horizons given by general relativity is thought to be incomplete. When the conditions under which event horizons occur are modelled using a more comprehensive picture of the way the universe works, that includes both relativity and quantum mechanics, event horizons are expected to have properties that are different from those predicted using general relativity alone.

At present, it is expected that the primary impact of quantum effects is for event horizons to possess a temperature and so emit radiation. For black holes, this manifests as Hawking radiation, and the larger question of how the black hole possesses a temperature is part of the topic of black hole thermodynamics. For accelerating particles, this manifests as the Unruh effect, which causes space around the particle to appear to be filled with matter and radiation.

Duh....

Music by: Radiohead [Blow out]

Day & Age

2010-11-26T05:41:00.000-08:00

Time changes us, changes our environment and our beloved ones for equal independently on how we conceive each story as foretold.

I wonder on the many ways I've conceived this aging process through many stages of my own life. There was a time in which this was not only irrelevant nor considerable, and therefore not a priority. Later I conceived aging as a maturity process and I wanted to get there as fast as possible just because of being tired of the past stage (therefore confirming the theory of boredom), Each step brought more discoveries, experiences and responsabilities that switched my perspective from time to time. After several years, now I worry for some things I never realized before; and I'm pretty sure this may continue as I go forward...

Things have changed, places are basically the same (normally, even I grew on a couple of points in the world I wanted to visit) and expectatives are to continue this way for some more time. I carry new responsabilities and so I'd like to learn from them.

Maybe with the come of the years this may start to morph again into something I worry on a daily basis, this could be one of the first chapters of this conception and so I would like to remember it as it is.

Music by: Porter [Este Cosmos]

Stoicism

2010-11-02T13:57:00.001-07:00

Main problem for a man that follows his own instinct; is to pursue the goals of another man.

Music by: Duck Sauce [Barbra Streisand]

Unbekannt

2010-11-01T14:15:00.000-07:00

Astonishingly delused by a season stranged enough as to pass by without major notice, I took a couple of later valuable minutes to meditate of what is the meaning of our feelings towards the things we don't know.

Rare, yet not unfeasible are some things I have recently heard; therefore making me think on the causability of the universe. A season for changes and contrasts, quite interesting for a quiet living.

I must quote a couple of key aspects of this reflection in the pure form they came to my encounter:

"Strange is our situation here upon earth. Each of us comes for a short visit, not knowing why, yet sometimes seeming to a divine purpose. From the standpoint of daily life, however, there is one thing we do know: That we are here for the sake of others...for the countless unknown souls with whose fate we are connected by a bond of sympathy. Many times a day, I realize how much my outer and inner life is built upon the labors of people, both living and dead, and how earnestly I must exert myself in order to give in return as much as I have received."

...

"Get it into your head once and for all, my simple and very fainthearted fellow, that what fools call humanness is nothing but a weakness born of fear and egoism; that this chimerical virtue, enslaving only weak men, is unknown to those whose character is formed by stoicism, courage, and philosophy"

...

"Faith and doubt both are needed - not as antagonists, but working side by side to take us around the unknown curve"

... after all, it's quite funny to continue being surprised....

Music by: Queens of the Stone Age [Long Slow Goodbye]

Träume

2010-10-13T06:11:00.000-07:00

Wie man in den Wald hineinruft, so schallt es heraus...

Whom we leave behind are ghosts haunting us for a certain reason. Those chapters coming as flashes from past seasons threaten the continuity of what we live alive; and so long they are here once again because of something else. As far as I can figure out, every piece of this puzzle is here to enable the joining of another coming one, and therefore adding something to the big picture. This is the reason for their coming, this is why they were there.

The contribution of each player to a bigger result must be understood as the final intention of their role. Precisely opposed to an inherent Perspectivism of this point of view; this I expect to ensure and afterwards learn to enjoy.

Even in dreams, I still found some remaining reasons to continue...

Music by: Kasabian [Club Foot]

Vierzehn minuten

2010-09-14T06:16:00.000-07:00

Hearing the sound of the wind is something underestimated across ages of our lives. Normally, we are to used to hurry and speed up as long as something must be done and therefore we have a reason to look straigth to the moment and go on. Simple as sight but complicated as seeing.

Many things could cheer up the moments just because of the inertia of whatever comes after; instead of representing by themselves hope and joy caused by pure existence. Sometimes it is not at all about pushing and harvesting; not about having a big smile and pretending nothing happens in a perfect world. It is this way just because it is so; and the only way to going back to an idle state is more of this...

I write this because I've been trying to do what's right; and at the end I know I could stay there all night, just watching clouds fall from the sky.

yes, this river is wild...

Music by: Björk [The Comet song]

Fluss

2010-09-01T13:26:00.000-07:00

"...because this River is wild!"

Music by: Queen [ Winners take all]

Lücke

2010-08-12T09:16:00.000-07:00

"... Cause it's time to bring the fire down
Bridle all this indiscretion
Long enough to edify
And permanently fill this hollow..."

Music by: A Perfect Circle [The Hollow]

Vergangenheit V2.0

2010-07-30T07:19:00.000-07:00

"When youre a kid, all you ever want is for the stories your mom reads you to be true. You think you can crawl inside the world thats in every book and live in the pictures on every page, but deep down you know that this isnt something that could ever happen. And its knowing that the magic isnt quite there, that its just over the next hill or maybe in the next story, that makes you feel safe in your bed at night. You really wouldnt want it to be any other way."

Music by: A Perfect Circle [Breña]

Zukunftsglaube

2010-07-09T12:28:00.000-07:00

..." Eu não tenho vistas largas,

nem grande sabedoria,

mas dão-me as horas amargas

lições de filosofia" ...

Music by: Imelda May [Bring back my Cadillac]

Tagesanbruch

2010-07-05T06:21:00.000-07:00

Times come and go, leaving behind what can be considered as experiences and memories that build our lives. Some of them are sticked to the back of our minds tying their message to the present once and again as a broken recorder.

Music is at the end the rythm of the things to come; and hearing our song is everytime a reminder that there's more; there's a new step each time; and that there's hope.

This music... is you ... ¬¬

Music by: Imelda May [ Feel Me]

Geburtstagwörter

2010-06-21T09:52:00.000-07:00

¬¬

kleine Einzelheit...

... aber schon wieder Grunde genug

Music by: HIM [Sweet 666]

TAU

2010-06-16T10:08:00.000-07:00

Music by: The Rolling Stones [Streets of Love]

Sonnenschein

2010-06-08T06:18:00.001-07:00

jedes mal ein bisschen näher...

Music by: Thin Lizzy [Whiskey in a Jar]

eine neu Anfang

2010-06-03T06:06:00.000-07:00

Die gleiche frage; eine neue antwort...

It is a carbon copy of the same moment.
It is not the fact that is an akward moment; but instead that it seems to be uncomfortable even to speak at it. What must be done is to skip this next time.

Even I'm not completely aware of it, I know that something is in progress. Something that could really turn my edge around once again. I'm still a little bit shy regarding how to go into this; but it feels good...

"...Birds flying high, you know how I feel..."

Music by: Muse [Feeling good]

Die Teufel

2010-05-22T17:16:00.000-07:00

Immer zusammen
durch den Fussbalfeld

und Aus.

Musik von: AC/DC [Thunderstruck]

Sprachlos

2010-05-18T13:28:00.000-07:00

When I'm at the pearly gates
This will be on my videotape...

Mephistopheles is just beneath
and he's reaching up to grab me...

This one is for the good days

and I have it all here in Red, Blue, Green

in Red, Blue, Green...

Music by: Radiohead [ Videotape]

Bestimmung

2010-05-09T18:37:00.000-07:00

It comes everytime I preview what I must pursue ahead. Knowing exactly what I'm fighting against leads to a unavoidable fate of turning against what in the past has dropped me back uncountable times. I see, and I recognize that look in the eyes of my own reflection that I'm only one wish behind... but it is everytime like this.

Once I believed that those trips would lead me to find the parts of me that I cannot find in (and inside) my own environment. This was the same tale, only dressed in a namely fashion I could urge to understand before taking any decision. The question once again is: What am I ready to pay in order to gain something? Love, time, money, mind, usw; everytime is something like a mix aligned to a promise.

Growing greater is something I must be sure of, but I guess if it is only through more cut-outs that I can ensure this; then I must be aware of the things I leave behind before it's too late.

Maybe it is better that this time I'm a little bit short of time for over thinking.

Music by: Little Boots [Mathematics]

Augenblick von licht

2010-04-25T18:47:00.000-07:00

noch einmal ich bin überzeugt uber etwas besser...

And this happen once again to slap me on the backyard of my own feelings about that everytime this faith realizes I'm still here; I must be thankful about this tidal wave of things that tease on options for the future.

I got lost (only on the inside) by the color of those eyes only to realize that it's happening again; taking me out of the same comfort zone in which I hold the control all the time. A good explanation can be found through the self recognaissance of what originates this emptiness on the only purpose of pushing towards something else. Then this paradigm is focused on what does this something else means for each one of us, making this a continuous process of learning. not so far from the original concept?

I was overwhelmed by the environment, because it was REALLY nice. I can't step really over those edges I won't ensure even exist for me; but it was quite comfortable... even quite numbing.

By the way, thank you!

Music by: The Expendables [Sacrifice]

Inspiration

2010-04-21T10:27:00.000-07:00

Music by: Muse [Unintended]

Farewell Ride

2010-03-31T14:59:00.000-07:00

It is everytime we are blinded by the power of an strong event; that we put in the balance those things that come unawared most of the time. That is why we are surprised by the astonishing panorama of the unavoidable at the point we are not able to fix the situation without another choice than going through.

People form our life as bricks that fit together in an uniquely shaped pattern, and the slaps from life generate some of them as eventuals, being lost as pieces never able to be recovered. Thinkers on this have agreed that no matter how you focus in this loss, it will always be remembered as a loss. What make a difference between what is worth to go through and what doesn't; is precisely that response generated after the loss.

There are no manuals, books or instructives on what to do next. It is inside your heart. It has always been there because that is the last place we are used to look in; and therefore, the path of understandment in ensured with the promise of a reward at the end. I don't hesitate to consider that is easy to see the answer in the pain of others; but I guess this is a way to throw a challenge that can be reached for good.

Be sure that this is also painful for the ones that love you. and I don't dare to compare in any way. We are confident in looking to an stronger version of yourself after this. In the meanwhile, we are with you brother...

Music by: Noel Gallagher [Fade away]

Wide awake

2010-03-17T07:20:00.000-07:00

I'm not still overwhelmed by those things that scare away my dreams at night; but as I see, they are pushing hard to reach my rock bottom. I just lost another battle, and I'm struggling back to remember that it is that way everytime.

Being a little bit hurt again brings back the feeling that lead me to redraw my personal premises. I pass over this again and that reminds me why is always my task to come over this alone. Never different and never the same.

Music by: Beck [Farewell ride]

Anfangen

2010-03-08T08:38:00.000-08:00

As every new day, I rediscover that music remind us that there is something else in the universe than us...

Music by: Velvet Revolver [You got no right]

Sonntag

2010-03-07T17:54:00.000-08:00

Setting assets in the facts that nothing is purely caused by uncertainty and coincidence as the only mean to iniciate an existence; sometimes is hard to understand the root cause of the actions coming along after sometime of absence. It is everytime I am in the middle of this kind of forecasted arguing; that I remember what is the common difference between those who plan and execute and those who live under the reactive behaviour as an everyday routine.

It is not that I do not appreciate the comforts of everyday's stability, the security of the familiar and the tranquility of repetition. But instead I rather to face an everyday challenge as the condiment of the blind impulse that pushes me forward. Questions may come and go, but I'm kind of getting used to it.

As an unavoidable reference in almost everything I write, there are some words that serve as a foundation for my point of view, and I like to remember them...

... I dare do all that may become a man, who dares do more is none.

... conceal me that I am, and be my aid for such disguise as happily shall become the form of my intent...

... It is that I, like God, do not play with dice and do not believe in coincidence....

Music by: Bach [Toccata e fuga in Do minore]

Derridá

2010-02-24T13:05:00.000-08:00

"... the entire history of the concept of structure, before the rupture of which we are speaking, must be thought of as a series of substitutions of centre for centre, as a linked chain of determinations of the centre. Successively, and in a regulated fashion, the centre receives different forms or names. The history of metaphysics, like the history of the West, is the history of these metaphors and metonymies. Its matrix is the determination of Being as presence in all senses of this word. It could be shown that all the names related to fundamentals, to principles, or to the centre have always designated an invariable presence – eidos, archē, telos, energeia, ousia (essence, existence, substance, subject), alētheia, transcendentality, consciousness, God, man, and so forth..."

– "Structure, Sign and Play" in Writing and Difference, p. 353

sich beruhigen

2010-02-22T07:49:00.000-08:00

Being ease not only in my head, but also with those things that are out of it; I'm starting to learn once again what peace is. Supported maybe by the long time present strategy ensuring me to remain on my comfort zone at least in some critical points, life is taking a rythm worth to see around what should be the direction to take. I have not only the privilege of enjoying silence as just a few do; but also I have on my side those who make the time to shape into laughs.

As a matter of facts, things happen for a reason that does not always is clear enough as to be understood, but only tests us to look if we are strong enough not only to go through it, but to enjoy it in the middle. By now I've been blessed with things I specially enjoy and that I hope would serve as a plattform for something else.

Future may bring additional challenges and other things out of the scope, waiting to make this time more fun and to give more topics to write about; but that's just a guessing joined with a lot of plans.

Music by: Wolfmother [California Queen]

Hiersein

2010-02-19T09:25:00.000-08:00

So here I go, Im still scratching around the same old hole

My body feels young but my mind is very old

So what do you say?

You can give me the dreams that are mine anyway

Youre half the world away

Half the world away

Ive been lost, Ive been found but I don't feel down.

And when I leave this planet

You know I'd stay but I just can't stand it and

I can feel the warning signs running around my mind

And if I could leave this spirit

I'd find me a hole and I'll live in it cos

I can feel the warning signs running around my mind

So here I go still scratching around in the same old hole

My body feels young but my mind if very old

So what do you say?

You can give me the dreams that are mine anyway

Youre half the world away

Half the world away

Ive been lost, Ive been found but

I don't feel down

No I don't feel down

Music by: Bacilos [Lo mismo que yo]

Wolfmutter

2010-02-17T08:04:00.000-08:00

They came from ten thousand feet, on a possibility street
It was the law of the land, turned castles into the sand
When its only kingdoms a turning, when Ive got to find out some
Learning even the people so small, wanna see the tyrant a fall, oh yeah

You could be, what you see, anytime, this time
Could it be, what you see, you could be, in time
Your love, my love, our love, in time
Your love, my love, our love, in time

It was the law of the land, turned castles into the sand
Somehow the machine prevailed, another tyrants tale
Its only kingdoms a turning, watching the factories burning
Even the mountain so tall, will see the tyrant fall, oh yeah

Anytime, you could see, what you be, in time
Could it be, everything, that you see, is fine
Your love, my love, our love, in time
Your love, my love, our love, yeah in time

Take, the time, to see, the other things in life
Are all around, you never get the time
To see, all this, about me anyway
Your love, my love, will stand in time always.

Music by: Wolfmother [10,000 feet]

Naturlich

2010-02-14T14:18:00.000-08:00

Music is the perfect companion for the unwritten life sparing in front of us. A personal soundtrack is always playing, whenever we are open to hear properly...

Music by: Collective soul ( Straight Lines)
Sent from my Nokia E63

Der Teufel ist Zurück

2010-02-02T09:32:00.000-08:00

I insist

that you are in love my lover

you passed out

and I didnt even noticed

I think in position

when I see your eyes

Froyd will be very,very,very mad

So,so,so,so

So,so,so,so...here in my mind

Lovely, lovely time is nothing but (lovely)

Lovely, lovely time is nothing while (lovely)

Lovely, lovely time is nothing but (lovely)

You're a host of a ghost...

Music by: Porter [Host of a Ghost]

Immer mehr für machen

2010-01-29T08:53:00.000-08:00

We commonly come and go

thinking in what can we do for ourselves.

why not to question...

What Can I do myself?

for me including others.

and those others

are not always socially defined

as the object of help

even some people

keep fighting for it,

when the grattitude is rare

and barely spoken

at least in words we can write.

The bigger the effort
the quieter you reach yourself
and the closer you are for a change

Thank YOU

Lied

2010-01-28T07:16:00.000-08:00

Love my name

Love left dry

Frost or flame

Skeleton me

Fall asleep

Spin the sky

Skeleton me

Love, don’t cry

Skeleton me

Soon comes rain

Dry your eyes

Frost or flame

Skeleton me

Fall asleep

Spin the sky

Skeleton me

Love, don’t cry

Skeleton me

Music by: The Yeah Yeah Yeah's [Zero]

Fieber fur sagen

2010-01-27T09:32:00.000-08:00

Today it's Rock season opening; after a long long time where hard experiences and distance from music inspiration where the constant.

Being considered in the long-time questioned genre classification as Indie rock-Garage punk, Mrs Karen O.; Brian Chase and Nick Zinner promess to blow our minds with their lyrics and highly inspirated rock.

For me this is a good chance to expect an asynchronous reflection based on lyrics and environment, based on what has been for me to reach this life. I will be together with my friends (not all, but a pair of good ones) and that's enough reason to say....

HELL YEAH !!!!!!

Music by: Fobia [Una vida Sencilla]

noch einmal...

2010-01-25T07:49:00.000-08:00

"... y siempre voy a estar aqui; mas no puedo quedarme a verlo

te va a tocar desmantelar esta bomba de tiempo..."

Music by: Los Concorde [Bomba de Tiempo]

Neues Zeit

2010-01-18T13:45:00.000-08:00

Suddenly the plans come out of nothing just as if I had ignored them for a long time. It was not really that there were no plans, but instead that those plans were not a priority and I was instead looking toward some other stuff as worrying reasons. I have a tendency to think that there is no other way to find those things that bring happiness; but that is an idea I like to question by now, considering the fragility of my own concept of justice.

It is by now comfortable to realize that there are fewer problems that took away my dreams at night ; since it will be a problem soon that the same lack of issues could lead me to look for them. I know myself and that is why I'm pretty sure of this. I still believe that Truth is something worth to fight for...

"I want it all, and I want it now"

Music by: Queen [I Want it all]

L'Via L'Viaquez

2010-01-12T10:23:00.000-08:00

Recently I have been overwhelmed by the temperature, the wheater, the color of underwear and inpersonal gaming through the Gold suscription; therefore I understand why the only thing that come to my mind at this point is...

My Gym Partner's a Monkey

(Monkey Monkey Monkey)

My Gym Partner's a Monkey

(Monkey Monkey Monkey)

My Gym Partner's a Monkey

(MONKEY, MONKEY, MONKEY)

My Gym Partner's a Monkey!

Music by: Santana [Black Magic Woman]

Déjà Vécu

2010-01-06T13:21:00.000-08:00

Everyone of us have had an experience of the sensation we occasionally realize that what we are saying or living had been said or lived before; in a way we are able to predict for a couple of seconds what is coming next. I wonder what might happen whenever we try to explain the root of this into the limits of what we understand as predictability of a soft phenomena. This is strangely related to irrelevant situations like an informal conversation of a simple trip back home that are hardly consequent in a higher context. Even there are several hypotheses regarding the root cause of this; it's still kind of hard to explain something that cannot be registered, reproduced neither accurately detected in any way. The question is still, what's the point of living this?

A more plausible approach to an explanation comes from the fact that being able to predict a pointless situation is not really a precognition of the previously lived, but instead a glitch in the recording memory representing a feeling of something being reminded for a second time. This might be supported by the fact that it specially hard to explain further details like when, where or how this came to happen. The curious aspect of this same theory is that secondary events may relate to each other composing a same plotline; which then represent a lower possibility of fitting along together coherently; therefore representing a more comprehensive effort of our brain to reliably gather the situation.

I used to wonder why are we obsessed with the understandment of those things that happen to distract us from looking for an answer itself; and this would be something I wish to learn as part of my life.

...from the forest itself comes the axle for the axe...

Music by: Jonatan Rys Meyers [This time]

Menschlich Akkordfolge

2010-01-04T08:48:00.000-08:00

Is it everytime we note the absence of it; that we realize that all the time we heard the rythm of our lifes guiding our tale in a sometimes hard to follow harmony. I recently heard that music is the reminder that God had something else to do than us and therefore that is why music is still keeping so many secrets for the human race. Most of us are capable of hearing it, but the true nature of this sinergy is what do we need to do to listen to what our song is trying to tell us.

I came aware too that everytime we would try to describe / permute / follow / write / explain this symphony to anoter being; the only result is an skip in the level of understandment that you can ensure for yourself; being thus kind of hard to get back to a concept appliable to your current condition. I think our own fears regarding not knowing how to follow this music is what make us look for advise on what to do next, and this only distract us from being able to hear whatever is contained in those notes. At the end we are the same alone and not alone, depending on why we use this decision for. As a result of this condition, I infer that we are determined to live our life under the long play of a soundtrack giving a landscape to what we go through, dressing with emotions this picture mute no more. Then, we learn why music bring us emotions, personal and individual meanings for a same note. There is no absolute pain neither absolute joy that can be initiated through music, since the mere concept of absolutism may be related too a certain "melody" and moment.

At the end everything is resumed to how we hear this music being played only for us, intended to bring us a message that is only feasible in the same moment and rythm we are living. Wheter we can use this music on our benefit or not, it would only make sense in the same moment and personal belongings written on a partiture greater than we could picture.

next...

Music by: Lilly Allen [22 (Acoustic)]

Arbeit durch Schmerz

2009-12-15T06:01:00.000-08:00

Es ist immer eine neue haltung... diese mal fur mich besser...

I pack my case.

I check my face.

I look a little bit older.

I look a little bit colder.

With one deep breath, and one big step,

I move a little bit closer.

For reasons unknown.

I caught my stride.

I flew and flied.

I know if destiny’s kind, I’ve got the rest of my mind.

But my heart, it dont beat, it dont beat the way it used to.

And my eyes, they dont see you no more.

And my lips, they dont kiss, they dont kiss the way they used to,

and my eyes don’t recognize you no more.

for reasons unknown...

There was an open chair.

We sat down in the open chair.

I said if destiny’s kind, i’ve got the rest of my mind.

But my heart, it dont beat, it dont beat the way it used to.

And my eyes, they dont see you no more.

And my lips, they dont kiss, they don’t kiss the way they used to,

and my eyes don’t recognize you at all...

Music by: The Killers [For Reasons Unknown]

Hoffnung

2009-12-08T12:31:00.000-08:00

So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,

blue skies from pain.

Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?

A smile from a veil? Do you think you can tell?

And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?

Hot ashes for trees?Hot air for a cool breeze?

Cold comfort for change?

And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls swimming in a fish bowl, year after year,

Running over the same old ground.

What have you found? The same old fears.

Wish you were here.

Music by: Isn't obvious?

Die nachricht

2009-12-01T08:34:00.000-08:00

At the end I know perfectly the reason for my insomnia. I never imagined to get aware of your new condition in this way. I searched for it and now I see why I was not able to see; just because I was willing not to see.

I'm feeling strangely alienated; maybe because I pictured a total different moment to cheer this; even I'm still on the position that it's the better the destiny may have prepared for both... just not for me to realize that I breathed extra based on my own ignorance; but that's something I cannot change by now.

I feel bad for myself, since I tried to make things different this time; maybe at the end it doesn't depended on me, but rather all time on you. I'm still this way happy for you, because I see the reason of your smile clearer than ever. I will hope the best from now on from a totally different position, but believe me; it comes from the bottom of my heart.

I do feel tired...

Music by: Katie Melua [ The Closest Thing to Crazy]

Der Epilog

2009-11-30T07:27:00.000-08:00

The aftermath of everything that could have been was finally faced in this tale I've created on my own. I must say that it was not so bad at all; thanks to the fact that I spent most of the time worrying about other things very similar in nature but atemporarily misbehaved. I felt the necessity of making evident what I'm sure was present maybe just as a thought, causing probably very different effects. I'm glad to see that even this was forgiven.

By now it's clear that the plans were from now on to have no plan; and that leave me with less to miss even in my mind were some milestones put away still kind of far with the original intention of living them later. Somebody told me a couple of weeks ago that this is about learning to be alone too; to learn that a new promise of the future must come within the welfare truly experienced. On the other hand, I received kind of a "complaint" regarding bad seasons repeating once and again and a sense of exhaustness related to them; which made me think also about what do we call a bad season. The tenderness I felt is obviously something I miss and that's making me fear* again, even I'm also pretty sure this is not what is on the script for me by now.

By this time, I still keep in mind that we live what we are prepared to live; that is useful to cry whenever we need to clean our vision to see what's coming. I repeat this everytime I still feel blue for the past.

"... Time came as creeping, and time's a loaded gun,

every road is a ray of light,

It goes on, time can only lead you on

still, such a beautiful night..."

* a concise and long explanation regarding fear was posted some time ago

Music by: The Mars Volta [ Vicarious Atonement]

Neun millionen fahrräder...

2009-11-23T06:27:00.000-08:00

I think at the end all the time it is on me.

Not only because it was supposed to be this way; but also because I do think that it was necessary in order to gain a balance that could allow once again the future to manifest in a better shape. I'm still struggling with myself regarding how this situation can be handled without leaving space for committting with past mistakes as if I never had lived this before.

I still attach those concepts to these times I was not quite aware of the things I was living. I saw some ghosts in the same streets, and some postcards in the same places; that left me once again with the feeling of having lost something that cannot be replaced. I realized with a certain sadness that those streets lack of the same life than before, and that the color of those times was never related to the buildings. I even considered myself kind of disabled to go through the same again in some aspects; just because I'm still out of the focus that let me won before. Even when I'm pretty sure this is not what I want for myself soon (and never); I still freeze when facing the start of a path that may lead to everything I've ever wanted.

It is hard, maybe overseeing that I'm a person that sticks very roughly to dates and times. Once again the decision to go through this is all on me; but I still fear.

Even all this; I still believe that There are nine million bicycles in Beijing...

Music by: Katie Melua [ Nine million bicycles]

Freizeit v 2.0

2009-11-15T19:00:00.000-08:00

Having the chance enough to rest on somebody else's space gave me the point of view of those conditions that I will not see standing from my own place. I know that spare time give me reasons to miss those other moments that exist in my mind as a nice postcard of different contents.

Once my soul was opened in a certain way by a mix of high voltage rock and silliness long time not seen; I also reminded some moments that gave a reason to smile back again with a certain sorrow for what was also good in the past. I must even say that it was strange to step on the respectful territory that represented the struggle for a beginning I reached and that opened the chance to everything else.

I know that this search for something else is still on the road; being hard again to remember without getting involved. I know that the good warrior don't ever look back...

The case is that for the first time I had the chance to look on me through the eyes of my surrounding world; and that let me rewrite my strategy once again... I just hope this to be the last time.

Even this was difficult again; I must thank all those who are always besides to slap me when needed.

Music by: Jewel ft. Rob Thomas [Here comes the sun]

Wünsche wünsche

2009-11-08T19:56:00.000-08:00

Time has been a hard test to look forward to whatever the future may bring. Anyway, I'm extremely proud of the way the determination to set your mind free of pain was a motor to be better no matter what I felt. I must recognize that unexpected was a moment to look up and see again what originally made me admire you; and now that I needed it the most, you gave me the only reason I needed to hope for something bigger.

The hole in my soul was suddenly filled by respect and individuality, in the only way it was prudent to do it and in the same way, to encourage all those feelings that gained me the title of a psycho and a careless dreamer. I have realized that no matter how crazy it sounds, IF universe got another idea for putting together two stars from different galaxies again; they will have another chance to travel the eternity fused on a single tale.

Curiously, I'm really peaceful for what is yet to come; since it was a powerful lesson to understand that not all the weight is on my shoulders each time. Once again (even I could thank you for the eternity), I'll carry your smile under my skin to give me a reason to be better.

Music by: Sabina, Calamaro y Paez [Mas Guapa que cualquiera]

die antwort

2009-11-06T10:33:00.000-08:00

An Ockham's razor is always a shorter path to understandment and evolution; both in knowledge and in life. Sometimes I forgot this, some others I found it very real.

Shall I be more often aware of this; I could be more clear...

Music by: Gustavo Cerati [Té para tres]

Besessenheit

2009-11-04T07:18:00.000-08:00

Stepping right aside the top of the abyss without being able to realize how you made it there is something it is both horrifying and at the same time worth to see. Not only because it's a moment that will force yourself to look for health and forgiveness; but because the fact that you carry behind those who love you in someway. I recognize that the position of understanding this has been a lot more difficult for me than originally thought, but I want to keep clear that this is what I need to do looking for longer term dreams.

Moore, Hodgkinson and Forward may have had a good chance on me; but atemporality and the lack of an study case worth (and bad...) enough to make me a point of interest is precisely what makes me stop before I turn into something I would hate. Today I woke up with the feeling of going from a nice dream to a boring and unsatisfying reality in which I'm still far from the man I want to be, and it took me a couple of hours to truly realize that this is not the way I want to live my life. There is by now nothing in the outside world that could change my perception only because it is that way; and even there was something, this condition would make me refuse the nature of the solution. A circle has been created between what I want and what I feel, and at some point I'm the only one willing to cut it off to start a path again. I may involve turns and drops in this process of drawing again a painting that was starting to fill with dust; and by now I need to understand that this must happen anyway.

It's been harder than I conceived, and now I question if I was really aware of the meaning of the choices made (not all were about choices but at the end living them was indeed a choice). I'm still clear that everything in our life is an option we choose to take or not; either we are not concious of this most of the time. Waking up, having breakfast, walking, arguing, traveling, falling in love, screaming, crying, eating, sleeping, etc. All of them carry a decision that must be made to fulfill the intention and therefore causing an effect in our lifes; and vacilating in the clarity of this decition is even a choice that must be taken with respect.

I personally believe that past must become a support for our present; not our present itself.

I'm not the kind of person that accepts that a certain weakness must be a part of you just because it appears sometime; but instead that everything that bring us pain in anyform need to be taken out. Long time ago a was in the same position and that's why I remember how hard it is to see it right, to hope for better things even they are at the corner. I want to have this clear thinking first in those ones I love and later in a more peaceful version of myself.

Being right or wrong is not something that doesn't matter mainly for me at this point. I want to make the best of this, for me and for others.

Music by: The Killers [That's just your life]

Geistig Verkleidung

2009-11-02T18:01:00.000-08:00

These days I've seen why it is important for people to wear something that can represent some part of their nature without being judged in return. I know that most of the time it's important to keep in mind who we are; but it's refreshing to see how good it feels to everybody let themselves go for some time; and find what makes everyone happy with no prejudices.

I still would have liked to left some other things; but I guess it's a matter of taking advantage of what is good by now.

Music by: Interpol [Pace is the trick]

Hologramm...

2009-10-29T16:45:00.001-07:00

looking to what is not really there may be translated as incredibly virtuous, even artistically; or either incredibly blind with a tendency to idiocy.

There are a lot of things I want to learn in Life...

Music by: Los Fabulosos Cadillacs [Los Condenaditos]

andere leid, andere tag

2009-10-28T13:00:00.000-07:00

time takes its crazy toll

and how does your mirror grow

you better watch yourself when you jump into it

'cause the mirror's gonna steal your soul

I wonder how it came to be my friend

that someone just like you has come again

you'll never, never know how close you came

until you fall in love with the diamond rain

throw all his trash away

look out he's here to stay

your mirror's gonna crack

when he breaks into it

and you'll never never be the same

look into his eyes and you can see

why all the little kids are dressed in dreams

I wonder how he's gonna make it back

when he sees that you just know it's make-belief

look into his eyes and you will see

that men are not alone on the diamond sea

sail into the heart of the lonely storm

and tell her that you'll love her eternally

Music by: Yeah Yeah Yeahs [iTunes Live Session EP2]

Das Leid

2009-10-19T09:42:00.000-07:00

Our senses help our soul to understand what surrounds us and convert it into something we can understand. As complicated as it is; some of this phenomena are associated with specific thoughts or feelings linked by specific reasons and events.

It happens that music is capable of rising presumably hidden emotions; not necessarily representing what is correct or convenient...

I see why the need for a rodent figure now.

Music by: Kings of Leon [Use Somebody]

Solide sein

2009-10-16T07:42:00.000-07:00

Es ist einfach...

Understanding the conditions of the moment is a key aspect of taking advantage over the situation and those players surrounding it.

It's true that the inertia related to the determinism of our actions will make us tremble once and again as long as we are not aware of our vision. Making adversity something better is a virtue reserved for those who embrace change and it's consequences as something natural to the process; and later focus themselves in the transformation. Past is something that must be there to remind us what we learned before; and show us that in order to learn, sometimes we must forget too.

This time brought something good for both of us; finally.

Music by: The Mars Volta [Inertiatic ESP]

das Mitleid

2009-10-12T13:13:00.000-07:00

History of a lifetime is composed of spiral-like patterns slowly going towards the direction we want our freedom to take. Sometimes we can define were to go; but not always we find the favorable scenario for following an straight line therefore meaning the shorter road.

It is sure that we advance; the matter is how fast can we understand the conditions given and decide what to do next.... left... right... forwards... backwards... everytime a different intention joining together with present to see us change our mind. Purposes are questionable as long as this goals are set; and the means to go for them too.

Along this road we seek for the shorter story to fit our own...

Music by: Jarabe de Palo [Bonito]

die Abbruch

2009-10-07T15:33:00.000-07:00

Once in a while you have in mind a person you cannot expect from being less than perfect. Maybe because you have known legends about braveness, loyalty, effort and courage properly written for an epic hero. This time was enough to form a behavior pattern that pushes you to go forward with the nirvana of an example that can be reached...

... and sometimes this story goes wrong in some point in a way imagination lacks of capacity to go far enough. This figure falls suddenly from a heavenly place to fit into a more "Terrenal" situation leaving a sense of flesh and bones and a new conception on how perfection is pursued. blood was the object of humanization...

Shall this be a cold reminder of this pitiful moment; even when it has glimpses of hope.

Music by: Lenny Kravitz [Stand by my woman]

Schulden

2009-10-04T19:20:00.000-07:00

Unavoidable as long as our own existence represent a disturbance for the balance of what we categorize as an environment; the debts we create with the people that surround us and ourselves are part of the work we are supposed to give back to enable once again a "certain" balance. As long as we keep far from that draw match, it is harder to even see that this is actually a problem and that it is ourselves the answer holders.

Understanding these , I'm supposed to take actions derived on the follow up of a path that should lead me to something I'm supposed to want. Therefore, making my balance to come to a more possitive scenario where I can start again spending those cards. My pendulum is still trying to fit a cycle I can recognize. In the meantime, I know that patience is something I'm lacking of lately, and I don't want to ruin whatever may could come later.

Supposed... I should really be worried regarding what does that mean for me at this time.

Music by: Muse [I Belong to you - mon coeur s'ourve à ta voix]

Bittersüß

2009-09-27T19:08:00.000-07:00

Etwas... that's the item that becomes our eternal struggle to strive for more on each aspect of our lives that is not fully understood as a race. If you cannot have something then you must adapt even yourself to have it, and in this way you can discover what else is missing on your list so you can need to adapt yourself.

This sounds astonishingly silly when faced against the simplicity of the concepts we can find on a stand alone conception of things thinned by alcohol on any form. It is true that some things cannot be changed and only conceived through the complete understandment of the nature that originates it's fate. Some people conceive this and precisely the opposite just as the plain truth that must rule and what is funny from this matter is that no one is wrong.

By far I remember that cloudy times brings the need to find the inner light for each one of us; and that no wind can blow on my own sails if they are not ready to push. Deep in my mind are the things I cannot answer until I find my own explanation and there is where I must keep them to avoid spreading the problem to what actually is making me happy.

The eternal discussion regarding how this all became to happen is just what can be written and read; and fortunately I'm starting to be tired of hearing others about a science that is not known.

On a margin to all notes; I'm glad that the person that always push me upward in many forms through this and many many other times; had a good time on the day that was conceived to do so.

... Zum Geburtstag viel Glück!!!!

Music by: Muse [ Uprising[

der verrückt, die kraft und das urteil

2009-09-21T06:09:00.000-07:00

Many things in life happen without a fixed explanation on the purposes of it's own nature. Mainly, because nobody with eyes an tongue is in charge of delivering such an story to each one asking for this report; and this should be understood as the nature of life.

I had the enormous joy of having played a role in my own play founded in love and care. This was a time in which I personally believed in personal growth and respect in a way I have never lived before, falling and rising once and again each time to face new challenges with increased strength. But as all stories come to an end when they have been properly developed, the time came with the premise of making this of my own for the rest of my life. I still refuse to believe that in order to gain something bigger; something else must be lost; as I will always discover in a new way how big this time was.

All words have been said, all the apologies have been made and all the commitments are now drawn from the pain to exceed our expectations on the future. Shall this be a reminder that every minute of happiness is worth a thousand hours of work and pain; and when this price has a face and a heart willing to go through the same as a reflection; true happiness is the only feasible consequence.

The time to show everything not just in e-paper is from now on an unavoidable fate. I must find this a promise on my own.

So... day 1.

Music by: Muse [ Exogenesis: Symphony Pt. III - Redemption]

Allogamy

2009-09-17T09:44:00.000-07:00

It's clear now.

It depends on me.

In the past it happened somehow, once and again, this time too...

...but I'm not worried.

I have done it before.

It will be made again.

I will made it again.

Music by: Muse [ Exogenesis: Symphony Pt. II - Cross Polination]

Overdose

2009-09-16T18:19:00.000-07:00

Han sido días tranquilos en muchos sentidos, en los cuales he tomado el tiempo para devolverme parte de las cosas con las que estaba enormemente endeudado conmigo mismo. Tambien han sido días nublados y por ello reflexivos en la soledad de la abstracción personal.

Me doy cuenta que la unica constante que me mantiene mentalmente activo es el hecho de que siempre hay algo mas adelante en lo que pensar esperando el resultado mas favorable. por ahora son muchos esos factores; algunos mas relevantes que otros.

La comida es algo que he desestimado recientemente, y quisiera continuar de esa forma.
Inclusive, el compromiso de escribir es corto por ahora.

genug.

Music by: The Muse [Unnatural Selection]

Nachricht von todes

2009-09-08T06:16:00.000-07:00

All winter, we got carried
Oh way over on the rooftops let's get married.
All summer we just hurried
so come over, just be patient, and don't worry.
So come over, just be patient, and don't worry...

So come over, just be patient, and don't worry.

No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end;
I don't want a cycle of recycled revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all his friends.

No I don't wanna battle from beginning to end;
I don't wanna cycle, recycle revenge;
I don't wanna follow death and all of his friends.

Music by: Coldplay [Death and all of his friends]

Alterfassung

2009-08-03T09:08:00.000-07:00

Nur wie der originell zukunft... beide zusammengeschliesst geschichte am die nächste tag vergessen werden.

Vielleicht es ist noch einmal am besten.
ein bisschen.

Musik von: The White Stripes [The Denial Twist]

nahe

2009-07-26T20:37:00.000-07:00

Once you get too deep into the misunderstanding of what seems to be/happen/occur everytime the things are going out of spec; the things may start going bad and bad as long as this is not what is supposed to look like on your life. Feeling annoyed regarding how to deal with this in addition to everything else that look upon the horizon, I do realize what does it feel to be alone.

It is not like you cannot smell the perfume and follow your sense to react; but only have flashbacks of what mas scented the past with smiles and joy... missing what made you strong to keep it that way for long. Such a shame when you are not willing to do something...

... I'm confused...

I had the chance of looking to a story of what happens when the world has expected less than nothing from you; and even then caring the less from the world become more important everytime your realize about your insignificance. It may have been just an extraordinary arrangement of human inspiration, but at least teaches me a different meaning of love for oneself.

Becoming more and more drastically, I will prepare a better vision of thing based on my own novel...

Music by: Slovo [Whisper]

Hope

2009-07-10T09:48:00.000-07:00

sometimes...
A glimpse of light comes in a language that you cannot understand, but only realize...

Brosandi
Hendumst í hringi
Höldumst í hendur
Allur heimurinn óskýr
nema þú stendur

Rennblautur
Allur rennvotur
Engin gúmmístígvél
Hlaupandi í okkur ?
Vill springa út úr skel

Vindur í
og útilykt ? af hárinu þínu
Ég lamdi eins fast og ég get
með nefinu mínu

Hoppa í poll
Í engum stígvélum
Allur rennvotur(rennblautur)
Í engum stígvélum

Og ég fæ blóðnasir
En ég stend alltaf upp
(Hopelandish)

Og ég fæ blóðnasir
En ég stend alltaf upp
(Hopelandish)

Music by: Sigur Ros [Hoppipolla[

Keine Löffel

2009-07-06T10:28:00.000-07:00

Do not try to bend the spoon.

That's impossible.

Instead... only try to realize the truth.

There is no spoon.

Then you'll see, that it is not the spoon that bends, it is only yourself.

Music by: Kings of Leon [The Bucket]

Alkoholische Tiere

2009-06-10T09:41:00.000-07:00

Brass Monkey,

That Funky Monkey,

Brass Monkey Junkie,

That Funky Monkey...

Music by: The Beastie Boys [Brass Monkey]

Microcuts

2009-06-04T14:59:00.000-07:00

By those illustrated in the simplicity of things; the explanation of any phenomenon should make as few assumptions as possible, eliminating those that make no difference in the observable predictions of the explanatory hypothesis or theory. When multiple competing hypotheses are equal in other respects, the principle recommends selecting the hypothesis that introduces the fewest assumptions and postulates the fewest entities.

Hypotheses exist to give accurate explanations of phenomena, and simplicity is a valuable aspect of an explanation because it makes the explanation easier to understand and work with. Thus, if two hypotheses are equally accurate and neither appears more probable than the other, the simple one is to be preferred over the complicated one, because simplicity is practical.

The problem of deciding between competing explanations for empirical facts cannot be solved by formal tools. Simplicity principles can be useful heuristics in formulating hypotheses, but they do not make a contribution to the selection of theories. A theory that is compatible with one person’s world view will be considered simple, clear, logical, and evident, whereas what is contrary to that world view will quickly be rejected as an overly complex explanation with senseless additional hypotheses.

I'd wish everything could keep as simple as that...

Music by: The Trashmen [Surfing Bird]

Alleinsein

2009-06-01T19:34:00.000-07:00

POE

2009-05-28T17:54:00.000-07:00

When I was 15 years old I devoured my first Edgar Allan Poe book; it was "Tales of the Grotesque and Arabesque", a collection of short stories, containing some of the best from him.

It also included "The Raven", "The Narrative of Arthur Gordon Pym of Nantucket" and "The Gold-Bug". Such stories got a huge impact on my young self. The things I write about today are influenced by this author. He has an impact on the things I dream, to this day.I love (still do) the horror, the shock, the resurrected and the undead, the cryptography, the loneliness. The detective work...

Music by:My chemical romance [Blood]

Wartime sounds

2009-05-24T11:25:00.000-07:00

It's just like this only second everything has just stopped. Like a stepwatch measuring the last lap of a sucesion of an infinite of forgetted ones. Look behind and watch what you have dealed with; and no guarantee of going forward after that. Nice, but is starting to become common for me.

I look on the optimistic side of things everytime I need to do it. Why? I can't figure it out really. It's like start tripping on thin ice for a long long time; just wondering when the surface would break so I would finally feel the bone chilling cold at his very meaning. It's like hoping for falling to finally start going up. Nice dream by this point.

The problem is when this is actually becoming the problem; so tripping now makes me trip even more. I do, and I'm not proud of it. At the end is a part of me and I'm the only responsible for going ahead. ... responsible?

Wow, Now I sound as what you hate.

Music by: Aphex Twins [Come with Daddy]

Flu-ID toughts

2009-04-29T09:14:00.000-07:00

Beingnomorethanmerelyapartofanempireofindividualsalongahigwayofcompetenceandempathy;

reflectiontakesthewaydownwhenmorethanonefactorforecastsastormahead.Commonlyyoucanseea

varietyofemotionstoexistinpeople'sfaceatalltimestheycoexistwithyou,thehardtimescomewhenyou

realizethatmostofthosearenowliterallyblueandextrapolationofguiltynessappearsasthelogicalremain.

Iamherebyinductedtoconcludewithnomorethanthefirstimpression,that What we seek we shall find; what we flee from flees from us.Beingeasytounderstand,butmostofthetimeshardtolearn.SomedaysagoIintendedtomakethebest

ofthesituationwithoutharmingsomebodyintheprocess,butonceagainIjustrealizedthatitwasnotonme,

andforsurenotforme.The key to change... is to let go of fear,andthiswouldseemharderandharderaswefailfromfeelingcomfortablewiththistruth.Fearis

somethingthatIpersonallyfoundexquisiteandintrigatingwhenassiociatedwiththehumanbeing,since

wehaveahugevarietyofposturesthatcanbeshownwhenbeingunderit'sinfluence.Peoplearemoreoften

likelytofear,butnottounderstand.Ibelievethatthisistherootcauseofmostofusstrugglingtogetridof

somethingwedon'twanttoface/happen,butmerelyhittingagainstawallwecreateonourownandhurting

usintheprocess.Ofcourseitwouldneverbesoeasytounderstandwhatwedon'tfeel,butsorry,thatisjust

thewaythingshappen.WhatIdobelieveisthat Courage is not the absence of fear, but the mastery ofit,andonlywhenweareabletorecognizethisasatruthwewillbeabletostartthepathofmakingitofourown;

ofcourse,aslongasthisbeingthegoalofthisreflection.

Many of us crucify ourselves between two thieves - regret for the past and fear of the future

Music by:Audisolave [Like a Stone]

Fehler

2009-04-20T10:26:00.000-07:00

The word error has different meanings aund usages relative to how it is conceptually applied. Contrary to an illusion, an error or mistake can be dispelled trough knowledge; however this could happen even when the performer has the knowledge to avoid the mistake and it's affected by distraction.

More cientifically speaking, an error is the difference between the desired and the actual performance of a behavior observed in an object or system. When designing a complex system, an error occurs when a "root factor" is not considered and thus is not bounded inside the laws that rule this system. If the error is often likely to happen more than once, then It becomes more and more evident when properly monitored; and will increase the possibility of being spotted.

Rather than being easy to solve, human behavior mistakes represent a true challenge when finding an answer; due to the fact that mind rules are not bounded to soft rules. A cognitive closure theory approach would state that the only way to feedback the mind regarding performance issues could imply the deep understanding of the causes the gap between desired and current state.

How is it now? That's such a dilemma.

Music by: Franz Ferdinand [Jaqueline]

Blogz

2009-03-02T08:48:00.000-08:00

1- Qwijibo

A fat, dumb, balding, North American ape with a short temper.

Homer Simpson is a qwijibo.

Music by : The Chemical Brothers [Saturate]

Long tIme no sEe

2009-02-19T06:39:00.000-08:00

oh so all my lovin' go's
under the fog fog fog
and i will leave them all
well i'm just a poor little baby
cause well i believe them all

oh so while your growing old
under the gun gun gun
and i believe them all
well i'm just one poor baby
cause well i believe them all

I wish i could buy back
the woman you stole

Y-control, Y-control
you walk, walk, walk, walk, walk my winners
out of control, out of control
you walk, walk, walk, walk, walk my winners
out of control, high control
you walk, walk, walk, walk, walk my winners
out of control, out of control
you walk, walk, walk, walk, walk my winners
outoh so all my lovin' go's

under the fog fog fog
and i believe them all
well i'm just a poor little baby
cause well i believe them all...

Music by: The Yeah Yeah Yeah's [Y control]

technocracy

2009-01-13T19:54:00.000-08:00

this is curiously the second time I use a similar device to write what slowly trascends my mind. I realize now that I'm going through a process of self recognaissance the meaning of being alone after all. I guess this is part of leaving a trace of peace under my own life, even I'm still afraid of the cost.

written on a WM6 device to

Senseless

2009-01-07T08:29:00.001-08:00

Gebete Nich Gefunden!

Concertina

2008-12-24T11:31:00.000-08:00

Seems like on the eve of everything that may look good, it must exist the threat of storm to give shape to what we look upon.

I'll make the best of it.

No more to say this time.

Music by : The Mars Volta [ The Widow]

für immer

2008-12-18T08:00:00.000-08:00

Music by: Bunbury [El Porque de Tu Silencio]

Simiente

2008-12-03T10:23:00.000-08:00

...The house half the way

Fell empty with teeth

That split both his lips Mark these words

One day this chalk outline will circle this city

Was he robbed of the asphalt that cushioned his face

A room colored charlatan

Hid in a safe

Stalk the ground ...

... I won't stand in your way

Let your hatred grow

and she'll scream and she'll shout

and she'll cry and she had a name

yes she had a name...

... Micro waves me insane,

a blade cuts into your brain,

to sounds like forks on a plate,

blackboard scratched with hate...

...And then one day

A magic day he passed my way

And while we spoke of many things

Fools and kings

This he said to me

"The greatest thing you'll ever learn

Is just to love and be loved in return" ...

Music by: Itself