Sunday, July 26, 2015

Immer noch

It happened that fast as it came out of scratch. As soon as a week can bring distance and joy to a recipe this crazy.

Whether this is made to last or not; I keep pretty clear that it will not be the hardest thing ever happened to both.

But it might be as we ever dreamed

Friday, July 03, 2015

Anders du...

It's again a glimpse of that smile.  Enough as to  shake and tremble all foundations of my reality.  I wonder how, as only wondering I can think again in you and all those seconds I'm blinded by your strength and grace. This I've lived before just in the same and at the same time different way. I'm sure makes no sense to try to explain whatever can be as simple as to say "she's all I admire". It's you,  again and again giving me a reason as to question myself what is what I really want. Being not fair at all for you,  I let all this to flood my heart with your voice and smile,  causing this uncertainty about my feelings for you.

Why not?  Fair and simple as: why would you say "yes"?

An irrational side of me keeps asking for a way to get closer to you,  only to find I'm more afraid of realizing you do not need it. Time then for a more realistic portion of myself picturing how will the things be if I choose to blow it out in an excess of unrequested sincerity. Being me,  I know our roads are to be joined by our current reality ,  but never shared in the way I'd like now. You are a great woman, a wonderful mother and a beautiful lady, my words will make no justice to define you better than what
you see yourself in the mirror.

I'm somehow feeling down for the mere fact of feeling this way, little,  quiet and nostalgic when I look at you. I do not know more about the things that made you the way you're now; even I must admit I'd like to have a grasp on them, they represent the recipe of your greatness in such an small package; and therefore only a reason to show my respect and recognition. I have a big crush on you,  and you're the last person I will tell about it.

The reason to keep it as it is is precisely that.  You deserve to feel love and be loved in return.  It will come when the guy above us think you need it, and will be as good as you ever dreamed. This you can count on as sure as the love you give from the heart is addressed to your little you in an unconditional way,  and that makes the whole world to be in debt. I have no choice but to celebrate each moment spent with you, and handle myself with respect for all you are to me now.

I would have liked to find you in other time,  but this does not weaken how you are still great to me.  Even these words will never reach you,  they imply all I cannot avoid to feel.

Music by [Regina Spektor] - Samson 

Sunday, March 23, 2014

Du bist...

Is it somehow again a lonesome feeling on itself that brings me back to write about what is and shall not be anymore. I used (and still I do)  to think that overcoming to this kind of emotions is something a worthy gentleman must count among the toolkit on his back. Now,  being placed merely in the role of a character in this film noir,  I can try to leave in words what does it mean to feel the same way again.

It's all about time: when things go this way,  it takes a little bit more time to understand it than the beat the heart skips in the process,  to understand that for once,  it was you and only you the one creating the silent devotion I suddenly realized as something risky and charming at the same time. Threatening all I have so far created and believed,  it was pure...  Real...  Brutal ... It was you.

This story starts and ends in the very same moment then...

It implied mending a heart that cracked itself on the routine of boredom and this was, at least for you a feasible explanation to what on the other side I could have only conceived through your smile. This strength confirmed your past of pain and wisdom.  Maybe I have said only enough as to flash my respect and recognition to whom deserves to be reminded about it frequently, just because it is true. As long as this joins me in my concept of you,  I know u separating what I feel for you from what I respect of a given condition is my main task. We were never close to each other, meaning there was also not something that deserves to be forgotten.

I can only feel this was 99% on me,  but a sympathetic glimpse of a shine makes me feel it was also living in you on a so different manner that it made our story to live for a second in the way we both wanted.
This is what I believeand what dreaming on angels I found is all about. In a funny way, I'm sure I will need you and you may need me some dayso being out of each other's reach can only be worst than this feeling. It is indeed,  a tide....

The last part of this song is yet to be written, but most surely not by me. And in case you'll never hear it from my mouth or my pen: I respect you,  I admire what you are and what you try to be,  I want you and I love you.

This you can trust


                   Music by [ The XX -  Angels,  ShelterNight time, Tides, Our song]


Saturday, June 23, 2012

Sunday, May 13, 2012


Finally, I surrended to the mobile mode of slaveship.

Even though, it's cool

Monday, March 19, 2012

Hoch gedachte

It is extremely by default that this is the first time I write something this high above the ground. It makes me think on how our toughts and minds travel with us despite of a timezone or geographical position. We carry not only goals anf tasks, but also those things that push us along the way that represents moving us. It is that what wakes up one morning and makes us travel thousands of kilometers to find ourselves back with an enlarged version from each one.

Those we left behind admire us just for that. This is why people continue doing this. As per my own understanding, this is why it is worth to continue looking for this.

This time I do listen to a song that deserves to be mentioned...

Music by: Pearl Jam [You are]

Thursday, February 23, 2012

Neues leben

Es ist nur ein bisschen schwieriger als ich habe gedacht... Aber ich gefäll es  :-D